Warning!! This blog is pre-menstrual, reader discretion IS advised!!
To put it mildly.. this has not been a good week! I have been in a poor me kind of mood. (totally blaming it on hormones) lol. Nothing has gone right, My brother winds up in the hospital with a very scary and rare disease, and I have been let down or had my feelings hurt about 10 different times this week by different family members or friends! Sound whiny and pathetic yet?? lol Oh, I could go on but pretty sure you get the point :)
So it has me sitting here thinking.... Why is it so hard to open up and let people in??? I will tell you...The more friends you have the more chances you have of getting hurt. Sounds pretty simple, but it isn't. As I get older I am learning a lot about myself. I don't like to let people get close to me for fear of rejection or getting hurt. So if you are one of my 5 friends and are still on the list lol then i guess consider yourself lucky. Lucky that I am willing to take a chance with you and trusting you to not hurt me.
I realize also that people are human and selfish..myself included! I am sure that I have done my fair share of hurting. But I am not talking about little knicks and cuts that heal up quickly. I am talking about deep wounds. The kind that you will only let happen once!
Right or wrong the relationships from my past have somehow formed the person I am today. Without even knowing, I changed.
So, is it being smart to keep people at an arms length? Safe?? Or am I missing out on a great friendship???
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